I can't open that utube so I don't know the full story. While I don't wish I was dead I struggle at times with the thought that it wouldn't bother me too much if I was told that I would die tomorrow. I suspect that I have dysthymia and that it set in after I woke up from the WT deceit with the subsequent loss of my marriage ,family, financial security and death of my daughter. I know this may sound strange but I do enjoy living it's just that at times I relate to the thoughts of the song "Is this all there is to life"
Then I think of the movie Life of Brien and their hanging on the cross singing " Always look on the bright side of life"
Lots of hugs and empathy for you Talesin
Bob